Lordy Loo. It's the day before Friday. I made it over the mountain and I can see homestretch. My week has been a lot like this last leg of the Tour de France where Lance took the lead. He kills in the mountains.
I'm tired but in a good way. Made more progress last night on the apt. I've been throwing away a lot of stuff.....last night I threw out an almost love letter from a man I knew in college. When he left school, he graduated one semester before me, he wrote me a note expressing how he was sorry he was mean to me and regretted not having gotten involved with me because we could have had something special. Well. . .I guess he was right, we could have had something special for about two minutes and then much to our surprise it would have been over JUST LIKE THAT!!!! LOSER!!!!!!! I was happy to toss out his note considering I hadn't looked at it since I put it in my filing cabinet 11 years ago. I also threw out the picture of him I made for one of my photo classes; a playbill of a student production in which he starred; and a postcard where he referred to me as Hazel Nut.
Yes. I threw out little bits and pieces of my past and we know how hard that is. I threw away the pay stubs from the jobs I've had over the last 8 - 10 years. Goodness only knows why I was holding on to those bitter reminders of past crappy jobs. Those weren't as tough to throw out as one would think.
What else did I throw away? Bank statements from accounts that no longer exist; photocopies and printouts of articles that I was interested in 10 years ago about male rape (don't ask); letters I've written to people over the years but never sent (thank goodness, you know those letters); notepads with random scribbles and shopping lists that mean nothing now.
When J came over last night, he commented that I look like I lost weight. I did in a way. I lost or threw out a lot of baggage to make room for someone new and it feels great!!!!
And I am actually losing weight, which is weird considering you're supposed to gain weight when you quit smoking. It must be an oxygen thing.